Binge eating behaviour can make you feel intense feelings of shame and self-loathing for the way you eat. You may experience secretly bingeing on vast amounts of food, even when you are not hungry, to the point of feeling uncomfortably full.
A difficult day at work, a bust-up with a loved one or just a feeling that your life is dull and boring can all be triggers that cause you to binge eat. At some point you have learnt that eating certain treat foods give you an instant surge of pleasure and a release from the difficult, painful and uncertain emotions you feel. However, this is quickly followed by feelings of guilt and shame, and being disgusted by your binge eating behaviour.
You may follow a binge eating episode with extreme dieting for several days to make up for it. This may create intense cravings for sugar and a physiological drive to eat, setting you up for another binge episode. With your physiology and emotions in chaos, it is easy to feel trapped in what feels like a constant binge eating cycle.
This is how some people describe feeling trapped in a cycle of binge eating
A few days in to your plan and things are going well. Then often out of nowhere you find yourself eating; eating everything that you can lay your hands on.
Cakes, crisps, biscuits, chocolate, bread, cereal, - you know you shouldn’t be eating it. However, you feel compelled to complete the binge. Quickly and in secret you devour the food. For a brief period, you are in oblivion; finding release and escape from your
You feel a momentary rush of pleasure and excitement. You have left the world and nothing around you feels as important as eating.
All too swiftly though, the food is eaten, the wrappers and packaging strewn on the side and you are perusing the damage. Guilt, shame and self-loathing quickly descend and you cannot believe it has happened again.
You berate yourself for your lack of willpower and feel hopeless to change. Tomorrow you vow will be different.